Praise You Through Pain

My eyes are the window to my soul,

That’s why I chose to keep mine closed,

You said you wanted to get to know me,

But then the truth would unfold

Before I would let this stop me…

The lies of the enemy and

The judgment of Christians

Not accepting me because I was different

I will not say that I didn’t have a coice,

But the constant discouragement finally

Stuffed out my voice

I chose isolation,

Tried running from my sin and shame

It was too much

I could no longer handle the pain

My mind was engulfed in war, nothing I did helped

I know now that God protected me

According to some, I wasn’t fighting hard enough

But they never lived one moment in my head

I never had a second of peace,

Emotion and moods constantly overwhelmed me…

Depression is real

The battle was raging on and my life was at stake

I did my best to choose life, stay focused and pray

Of course I had been told…If I was on track,

If I was in line with God’s will, it would all go away

But I realized that my depression is real

Through Mercy it became clear that needing help is okay

My transparency has scared so many

But God has called me to be bold

I will not be ashamed

But will praise God for healing

For medication that works

Some disagree, but Im telling you in my mind there is peace

I finally have a choice

No longer will I let anyone/anything

Snuff out my voice