Thursday 27 June 2013


 

Mercy 30th Anniversary….a reunion with sisters from all over
A night spent with staff, supporters and many warriors
Nothing and no one can stop the Kingdom work being done!
The enemy comes to steal, kill and destroy
So many women choosing between life and death,
Battling with desires for freedom but so familiar with bondage
Lives at stake and Mercy has come up alongside us

This place is anointed and our faithful God continues to surround it
Blessed and fruitful for the past 30 years,
And surely it WILL NOT stop here!

God is using Mercy to drastically transform lives
His leading and their obedience has made an eternal difference
Christ-like leaders pour love into our seemingly broken hopeless lives
Holistic healing and help in transitioning
Accountability, understanding of what it means to be free
Mercy sets graduates up to succeed

Mercy 30th anniversary,
A great reminder of fighting the good fight
An evening of testimonies claiming the victory we have in CHRIST
But it does not stop here, filled up and sent out
Christ has come to give abundant life,
And Mercy opens eyes to that Truth,
In the end Christ has the victory!
And through Him and Him alone
Mercy is the vessel that has set many bound captives free!

Saturday 11 May 2013

          There had been an emptiness haunting me for as long as I can remember. In the midst of traumatic experiences...the feeling of emptiness imploded into a reckless state, into a disoriented search for love, for wholeness.
          After I accepted Christ I anticipated a massive and immediate change in my heart and mind. WIthout truly surrendering my all, I expected to experience the fullness of Christ.
          Oh how I longed to be healed, to be free from the pain of so many years distanced from my Savior. Now that I accepted His forgiveness and asked Him into my heart and life, I excitedly anticipated great change, great change with no work or surrender, with no willingness to move forward, but an unrealistic expectation of Him taking over...
         But God! I feel like that is the phrase that has saved me...not only from an eternity away from Him, but a life on earth full of anguish and addiction....a life completely full of emptiness. One of the most challenging parts of this phrase...But God...is allowing Him to work, is being willing to move forward...surrendering.
          Mercy Ministries is the vessel in which God opened my eyes to the reality of freedom in Him. To the reality that walking through the circumstances, the anguish, the pain, is the way to healing...when I do it with Him! I have had a past full of emotional hurt, some of it brought on by others, some that I created in my own fleshly, selfish nature...BUT GOD!  In Christ alone is healing, wholeness, the possibility of being filled! He will not force one into a life with Him, for He is patient, and loving...but HE longs for you, He longed for me! 
          IN CHRIST ALONE I am free from a past of sin and shame...I was once broken and lost, BUT GOD!

Friday 1 March 2013


You have broken the chains of bondage in my life;
Still for so long I held on to those chains so tight,
I was terrified to let them go; 
The pain, shame and temptation,
Surrendering to sin and repenting time and again
These things were all too familiar,
My hunger and thirst were for You;
But in the end it would mean walking in the unknown of freedom…

When I surrendered completely to You, I did not know it was only in part;
In my brokenness I hadn’t experienced being whole and free in Christ
So time and again I surrendered, constantly striving to be free
But constantly having to ask forgiveness from sin,
Constantly consumed by impure, unholy or harmful thoughts
Hounded by my past,
Bound by chains of bondage…by my own free will
Choosing the familiarity of this bondage due to the fear of not knowing what freedom held

God used Mercy Ministries to open my eyes,
I did not need to hide the pain and the shame
Cutting, biting, constantly self-harming
Trying to self-medicate
Looking for ways to cope,
Fighting a fight I had no chance of winning on my own…
Jesus Christ is my hope,
Through my journey at Mercy He opened my eyes…

It is for freedom that I have been set free,
No longer holding onto these chains,
Letting go of sin and no longer living in shame,
Consecrating my life to you, this time in freedom
For the first time Lord, this surrender is of me whole,
Im no longer asking You to take away the pain,
to stop my thoughts from continuing to stray
Now in freedom I choose to focus on You,
With Your strength, by Your grace I no longer need the chain
My trust and love for You is enough
And in the end…the unknown of freedom far outweighs the familiarity of bondage
Thank You Jesus for Your transforming power,
It is for freedom that I have been set free!

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Thursday 14 February 2013

Praise You Through Pain


My eyes are the window to my soul,
That’s why I chose to keep mine closed,
You said you wanted to get to know me,
But then the truth would unfold
Before I would let this stop me…
The lies of the enemy and
The judgment of Christians
Not accepting me because I was different
I will not say that I didn’t have a coice,
But the constant discouragement finally
Stuffed out my voice
I chose isolation,
Tried running from my sin and shame
It was too much
I could no longer handle the pain
My mind was engulfed in war, nothing I did helped
I know now that God protected me
According to some, I wasn’t fighting hard enough
But they never lived one moment in my head
I never had a second of peace,
Emotion and moods constantly overwhelmed me…
Depression is real
The battle was raging on and my life was at stake
I did my best to choose life, stay focused and pray
Of course I had been told…If I was on track,
If I was in line with God’s will, it would all go away
But I realized that my depression is real
Through Mercy it became clear that needing help is okay
My transparency has scared so many
But God has called me to be bold
I will not be ashamed
But will praise God for healing
For medication that works
Some disagree, but Im telling you in my mind there is peace
I finally have a choice
No longer will I let anyone/anything
Snuff out my voice

Tuesday 5 February 2013

New Creation


I am a new creation
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The old is gone the new has come…
But sometimes I struggle with the same thoughts
Which leads me to start questioning:

Am I really any different? Was the transformation I thought happened real or something that I imagined, that I so desperately longed for and pretended happened? The thoughts that overwhelm me will they constantly remind me…Sarah the old is not gone; see youre thinking on it now…sarah you will forever be bound by the chains…by your sin and shame…

There is nothing that separates me from the love of God
Not death nor life, not the deception im perceiving in myself
It is for freedom that Christ set me free.

 God opened my eyes to His hope, grace, mercy, love and so much more at Mercy ministries. I heard the Truth consistently for the first time I stopped believing the lies. You see I do have new life in Christ! The thoughts that try to overwhelm me will continue to be drowned out by the Truth of His Word. It may seem like the battle is raging on in my head, but I already know who wins in the end!

Almost two years later and still claiming the Truth,
Struggling and fighting the good fight
 my head is up and I know who has the Victory!
The old is gone, the new has come,

My new life in Christ has allowed me to share His Truth, the transformation He has done in my life. See reality is the enemy is scared out of his wits because God is redeeming the lives of so many that were at one point convinced…that they weren’t good enough, they had too many problems and too much shame to ever be saved. Do not be deceived friends! The Truth will set you free!!! God’s love is real, His forgiveness available and the power of Christ in you to overcome and defeat sin in your life is definitely attainable! GOD IS ALIVE AND WELL!!!!

Wednesday 19 December 2012

The Real Gift


Freely giving is something we cannot truly understand until we have freely received.
Loving is something we cannot truly do until we have truly allowed ourselves to receive love. For so long I walked through life feeling alone and confused
I was angry and refused to believe that God really cared
If He cared He wouldn’t have taken her, He wouldn’t have let them go…
He wouldn’t allow so much pain and hurt in this world.

His love became very real to me,
His truth set me free,
Free from sin and shame,
Free from confusion and pain…
God used Mercy Ministries to change my life,
He used this ministry to transform my mind

Now as I reflect on this season, I am amazed…
Christmas is the day where Love came and gave everything
God gave His one and only Son, not to condemn but save
 Jesus willingly came down to earth that day…
A loving Savior who truly desired our lives to be changed

It is easy to get caught up in the worlds meaning of Christmas
Not about our Savior’s sacrifice,
The focus becomes false happiness and fleshly desires
What we can give, what we can get,
A focus of materialistic selfishness,

When will our perspective change?
When will we grasp the real meaning?
Life may be hard, confusing and painful;
It does not ever have to be hopeless
God’s grace and love is available to all who have faith

A very Merry Christmas,
A gift of love beyond our understanding…
That Christ would one day shed His blood and freely give unending grace
Through Mercy I finally understood I had to receive it…
Would you evaluate your life, your faith, your love
Be confident knowing that He is perfect
His grace and love will never end
I pray this Christmas you would truly understand,
And find all your hope, grace, love, all you truly need in Him

Wednesday 14 November 2012

Passion and Brokenness

Standing above a worship center full of people worshipping the One True God…
I wonder how many of these people are masking their own reality,
Denying the hurt and pain, trying to hide their desperation
They are using faith as a mask…if the Church knew would they be rejected
And even if they were accepted, would the church invest their time or love into these hurting people…would we see them as worth it…
 
One abrupt ending of a life…one broken heart expressing their pain
Shouldn’t this tragedy cause a change;
Bring forth the passion of Christ running through our veins
Was that life not worth the death of Christ?
All this pain brings forth the question of this place…of the Church
Are we the body of Christ as He intended?
Have we been blinded by our own selfishness?

The battle has been raging in my head for years
Relating to these broken lives…
Because I was masking my own reality
Hiding in a crowd of worshippers ,
Afraid to admit because of rejection…
Choosing daily between death or life
 
Is the love of Christ really real?
Is His sacrifice for those lives…
The lives so broken they’re debating suicide…
The TRUTH is CHRIST died to save
His love runs deeper than this pain…
 
The church…His Body, we have to make a change!
Let his passion run through our veins
And we are bound as followers of Christ to truly care
To reach out and walk alongside each other amidst the fight we have in this life!