I am on internship right now and the Lord is doing lots of things in my heart. I am so thankful for this opportunity, although it has been challenging in many ways. When a new door opens and one obediently walks through it, there will be things that cause tension, frustration, stress etc; however we must always turn to the Lord, focus on Him and Trust His provision and guidance! This is just like a raw prayer...time with the Lord where He just reminded me of HIS goodness and that He is totally TRUSTWORTHY!

I try to turn to You

I am clinging so tight to Your Truth

Galatians 5:1 "It is for freedom that Christ has set us free"

And still somehow I end up here

Alone in the night; 

Unable to still my mind

According to Your Word I am a new creation

I believe that, yet so often seem to forget; 

The old is gone and it is for freedom that I have been set free!

But the war still seems to be waging inside of me

It's amazing how many thoughts pass through

Are these truths?

Are these lies?

Sometimes I get so confused.

Take captive the thoughts, bring my mind back to You

ok...but it still hurts, I can still feel it

I only want to quit trying to ease the pain

Then I remember that You didnt quit!

You would never give up on me!

It is through fighting that character is built up in me!

God You sent Your Son and He willingly came

He walked through suffering, 

Took my sin upon Himself and still loves me the same.

So once again I choose to fight!

The victory is already mine

Because in the end my Savior wins!

THANK YOU GOD FOR YOUR UNENDING LOVE!

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To really explain how I feel seems impossible.

It is something I have been trying to do for years

I try and fail, and lose a few friends,

Yet I still try again

Some say feelings do not matter,

But when you’re hurting, do you feel it?

Its not about what others think,

I am well aware of this,

However those close friends of mine

Who shoot down my pain and hurt

Just deepen it within my heart

And it seems to just go back to the start

So let me begin

My God loves me forever and always

He never changes,

And I will serve Him all my life

No matter what

I praise His Holy Name

This truth will not leave my lips

But other truth will come out

The pain is real, the hurt runs deep

My GOD IS BIGGER

The truth has not left me,

The pain has grown, the hurt has deepened

My heart is breaking and I don’t know what to do

I seek His face, trusting it will end,

Waiting, not knowing,

You see my life is like a mirror

Shattered in so many pieces

I and others have tried to glue my life back together,

When I encountered God, my Father,

And accepted Him as Lord and Savior

The gaps, and overlapping pieces of glass just didn’t cut it

So my heart has been broken, the mirror has been shattered again

God is gluing the pieces together perfectly

But the time He is taking, is a painful wait

He knows what He is doing

He sees the big picture, and wants to place each piece perfectly where it belongs