Praise You Through Pain

My eyes are the window to my soul,

That’s why I chose to keep mine closed,

You said you wanted to get to know me,

But then the truth would unfold

Before I would let this stop me…

The lies of the enemy and

The judgment of Christians

Not accepting me because I was different

I will not say that I didn’t have a coice,

But the constant discouragement finally

Stuffed out my voice

I chose isolation,

Tried running from my sin and shame

It was too much

I could no longer handle the pain

My mind was engulfed in war, nothing I did helped

I know now that God protected me

According to some, I wasn’t fighting hard enough

But they never lived one moment in my head

I never had a second of peace,

Emotion and moods constantly overwhelmed me…

Depression is real

The battle was raging on and my life was at stake

I did my best to choose life, stay focused and pray

Of course I had been told…If I was on track,

If I was in line with God’s will, it would all go away

But I realized that my depression is real

Through Mercy it became clear that needing help is okay

My transparency has scared so many

But God has called me to be bold

I will not be ashamed

But will praise God for healing

For medication that works

Some disagree, but Im telling you in my mind there is peace

I finally have a choice

No longer will I let anyone/anything

Snuff out my voice

New Creation

I am a new creation

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The old is gone the new has come…

But sometimes I struggle with the same thoughts

Which leads me to start questioning:

Am I really any different? Was the transformation I thought happened real or something that I imagined, that I so desperately longed for and pretended happened? The thoughts that overwhelm me will they constantly remind me…Sarah the old is not gone; see youre thinking on it now…sarah you will forever be bound by the chains…by your sin and shame…

There is nothing that separates me from the love of God

Not death nor life, not the deception im perceiving in myself

It is for freedom that Christ set me free.

 God opened my eyes to His hope, grace, mercy, love and so much more at Mercy ministries. I heard the Truth consistently for the first time I stopped believing the lies. You see I do have new life in Christ! The thoughts that try to overwhelm me will continue to be drowned out by the Truth of His Word. It may seem like the battle is raging on in my head, but I already know who wins in the end!

Almost two years later and still claiming the Truth,

Struggling and fighting the good fight

 my head is up and I know who has the Victory!

The old is gone, the new has come,

My new life in Christ has allowed me to share His Truth, the transformation He has done in my life. See reality is the enemy is scared out of his wits because God is redeeming the lives of so many that were at one point convinced…that they weren’t good enough, they had too many problems and too much shame to ever be saved. Do not be deceived friends! The Truth will set you free!!! God’s love is real, His forgiveness available and the power of Christ in you to overcome and defeat sin in your life is definitely attainable! GOD IS ALIVE AND WELL!!!!